Some days...

Happy Birthday to my oldest baby, I love you more today then the minute you were born!

Some days go really well for me, others not so much. Actually, that is only in my mind. Actually EVERYDAY goes great for me. I wake up to great family, a job that takes care of us, friends and the relief that I know God is always with me and sometimes carrying me. I look around at all things I didn't complete to "start my new year" right. But then I look around and see how much actually did start perfectly right. I hear the kids laughing, I hear my husband flipping the channels, I hear the furnace running, I hear the frig humming, I hear my son texting and hear the dog dreaming.

Now think about 13 hours ahead. Babies are crying laying in cribs with no mattress, children are hungry because there is not enough food, it is cold because there are no heaters, food is sparse, friends are limited and Mommys don't exist. That is an orphanage in China. That is what my children knew before they new me/us.

I think about this every single day. I really do. I have been on several mission trips and I am painfully aware of the over abundance I live. Too much. Too much food, clothes, house, heat, car, hot water, entertainment, TOO MUCH.

What I am lacking is faith. Not in the Lord. He has proven himself to me so personally I could never doubt him or lose faith in him. I don't have faith in myself. So this year I am determined to be faithful to myself and family and friends. When I say YES I will mean it. When I saw I WILL you can count on me. I promise to try ang give my all to be faithful. Todays' sermon stepped on my toes. I liked it. I needed to hear and be reminded that being wishy washy is a bad as doing nothing. And sometimes before I realize it, I am being lazy forgetfull and unorganized. BUT not this year, I am signed up for Tuesday bible study, workout class with my best buddy, my calender is planned as one can plan. Most of all I plan to be a great friend. I plan to be the kind of friend I would like to have. I plan to smile, give hugs, send notes. Just let people know that I love them and appreciate them. So many times I wait on the Lord, and sometimes we should. But the Bible says that faith without works is dead. I will no longer be dead. I pray that our year is so abumdent that our friends, family and foes will know Jesus is on the thrown.

Happy New Year~Love to friends and family.